Trying Hard

So since I was told I was insulin resistant I have to report I have been doing really well. I have given up all sugar, except natural sugars in fruit, I never eat carbs and I work out regularly. I miss soda and caffeine but I guess in the end it is a small price to pay. Since I started this routine in the middle of January I have lost 14lbs. Lets hope I can stay strong.

Stand By Me

Ethan and my song is Stand by me. Through everything Ethan has always been there and if the sky really does start to fall I know he will be there holding my hand.
He recently went to London with his Dad for vacation and loved it! While he was out in VA he had an interview with an Advertising Firm in Washington DC for an internship..... and..... HE GOT IT! and it is paid SURPRISE! I am so proud of him. It will be hard to spend the summer apart but it will open doors for him and us. I have to go to summer school and work but you know what they say absent makes the heart grow fonder :). I just remind myself that he is not in the military and is not going any where dangerous and I am grateful. And because of that fact I promise not to complain once while he is gone. 3 months in an office is nothing compared to what women like my sister go through with their military husbands. YEAH for good fortune and the Lord smiling on us!

Things I am grateful for:
Pandora oldies radio
Internships
Time off of work
Rain
Clean laundry

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Time to Change

So I went for a physical just because I have insurance for a while and haven't bothered to use it. Well I found out I am insulin resistant. When you eat sugar your body produces insulin to break it down. Once the sugars are broken down some is absorbed into you muscle. Well my body produces insulin and breaks down the sugar but my muscles are like "HELL NO WE WON'T GO!!" So the sugar sits in my blood stream and the then my body produces more insulin. So that being said I am basically a pre-diabetic. My dad had diabetes and so did my grandma so I am not surprised. I just have to change everything about my diet. I have to start eating like a diabetic and working out regularly and I should be fine. It is ssooooooo hard! I haven't really worked out since sports in high school! I just need to stop making excuses and pray that I will find some enjoyment in working out. We shall see hoe this goes. As far as eating I have been really good. In the last couple of weeks I have completely changed my eating habits and have learned a lot about what I should and shouldn't eat. The hard part is because my muscles do not absorb all the sugar they should I grave it ALL the time. I am not thrilled about this change but it is only gonna benefit me so I can't complain.

Families are Forever

Ethan and I got some difficult news recently and I couldn't help but be sad. I ask him if he regretted marrying me. I wanted to know if I was worth all the death and hard times we have faced and will have to face. His answer, "Sarah you are not the love of my life..... you are the love of my forever and that is whats worth it, forever with you." I didn't know I could love him more every day but I do.